Derailed ... While the journey is long and the tracks are currently twisting and turning, I still sing along; “I've been working on the railroad, All the live long day, I've been working on the railroad, Just to pass the time away, Can't you hear the whistle blowing, Rise up so early in the morn, Can't you hear the whistle blowing...” Oh yes, the whistle was blowing loud and clear and I just couldn’t hear it.
Since July our train has thrown me all over the tracks and not once did I hear the warning. That brings me to my favorite quote, “Make time for the quiet moments, as God whispers and the world is loud.”
Yes, it has taken me almost three months to pick myself up, dust myself off, and place my happy hips back on the train. I didn’t intentionally leave the train. I feel like I was truly thrown off the train. I’ve got the mental bruises to prove it. Now, who would throw me off the train? After all, it’s my journey and I thought that I had final say-so of who was onboard and where we were going.
That being said, we need to remember that it’s truly God’s Journey and we must be faithful and ready for the ride; no matter where it takes us. Fortunately God prepares the itinerary. For some reason I thought I created the itinerary, list of passengers and designated stops. Oh I was so wrong. God needed to slow this train down so that I could “hear” who was in charge. Trust me, it’s not me.
How grateful I am that a higher power truly has control over this train ride. I know I was thrown off the train for a reason. If for no other reason than for God to scoop my damaged body off the tracks and cradle me in his loving arms. He safely placed me back in my seat and we had a nice talk. I pray that I will continue to remember, in good times and bad that God has a plan for me and I need to sit back and enjoy the ride. I also know that I need to remain at peace with this journey. No matter how loud this train can get - yup, I’ve got some loud friends. I hate to say that I am probably the loudest. I love to have a good time. I also learned that I am a control freak, always have been.
As Dido sang, “I want to thank you, for giving me the best day of my life and Lord, just to be with you, is giving me the best day of my life”.
So, for all of those that jumped off the train and tried to help me back on I thank you. For those of you that viewed from a distance and prayed, I thank you as well. And mostly, I thank God for giving me another chance on HIS journey.
Since July our train has thrown me all over the tracks and not once did I hear the warning. That brings me to my favorite quote, “Make time for the quiet moments, as God whispers and the world is loud.”
Yes, it has taken me almost three months to pick myself up, dust myself off, and place my happy hips back on the train. I didn’t intentionally leave the train. I feel like I was truly thrown off the train. I’ve got the mental bruises to prove it. Now, who would throw me off the train? After all, it’s my journey and I thought that I had final say-so of who was onboard and where we were going.
That being said, we need to remember that it’s truly God’s Journey and we must be faithful and ready for the ride; no matter where it takes us. Fortunately God prepares the itinerary. For some reason I thought I created the itinerary, list of passengers and designated stops. Oh I was so wrong. God needed to slow this train down so that I could “hear” who was in charge. Trust me, it’s not me.
How grateful I am that a higher power truly has control over this train ride. I know I was thrown off the train for a reason. If for no other reason than for God to scoop my damaged body off the tracks and cradle me in his loving arms. He safely placed me back in my seat and we had a nice talk. I pray that I will continue to remember, in good times and bad that God has a plan for me and I need to sit back and enjoy the ride. I also know that I need to remain at peace with this journey. No matter how loud this train can get - yup, I’ve got some loud friends. I hate to say that I am probably the loudest. I love to have a good time. I also learned that I am a control freak, always have been.
As Dido sang, “I want to thank you, for giving me the best day of my life and Lord, just to be with you, is giving me the best day of my life”.
So, for all of those that jumped off the train and tried to help me back on I thank you. For those of you that viewed from a distance and prayed, I thank you as well. And mostly, I thank God for giving me another chance on HIS journey.
5 comments:
Hi Judi, I was so happy to get your blog again. Mom and I were just talking about you recently wondering how you have been. I told her I had not heard in a while. We are now living in Sherrills Ford, so back in the vacinity. Sarah has a horse farm out there. I take it from your BLOG that you have had some set backs. Glad to hear that you are back on track. Please keep me posted on your progress. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Debra
Hi Judie:
I am also learning to be grateful. Remember the race is not given to the swift or to the strong but unto the one that endureth until the end.
Hang in there! You are always in my thoughts and prayers. ~
HEY GIRL!
Been asking folks about you and since I am no longer in the fold of Allen Tate, I had no information. The struggle is hard and the track may be missing some rails, but God is the ultimate conductor!
I have a dear friend that is starting the same journey you have been. She has a blog too...www.bloger.vickivincent.com
Maybe you both can gain strength from each other.
Blessings,
Diane Rothwell
Oops...had Vicki's blog wrong. Here is the correct URl
http://vicki-vincent.blogspot.com
Call me!
Judie,
You write the most powerful, uplifting and moving pieces. I always feel they are a blessing and having read them feel blessed having you as a friend. Your spirit and loving sense is an inspiration to us all. Please know that you continue in my thoughts and prayers always. Linda Morris
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